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Name: tawsha
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Metro: Van Buren
Birthday: 2/22/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: God, telling others about Jesus,Seth the guy of my dreams,HANGING OUT WITH MY BESTEST FRIENDS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD MY SISTER, BRITTANY, JENNIFER, KRYSTAL, BRITNEY MITCHELL, TUCKER, EVERY ONE FROM CHURCH.. Music is my passion..what would i do with out it, i love underOATH, blindside, emery, as i lay dying, the goodnight fight, The wedding, flyleaf, sullivan, number one gun, waking ashland, copeland, circa survive, foreverchanged, the afters, olivia, monday morning, Norma jean, project86, sherwood, MARCA, jeremy camp, shawn mcdonald, 7th day slumber, 7 places, crime scene, A WHOLE LOT MORE...I love writing poetry with a positive message..
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Friday, May 19, 2006

Currently Listening
Burning Bridges
By Haste the Day
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My xanga readers..Im not updating anymore...you can contact me on myspace.com/emogrl4christ101  Talk to you people later...

God bless you guys!!

Tasha


Monday, May 08, 2006

Currently Listening
They're Only Chasing Safety
By UnderOath
some will seek forgiveness others escape
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Hey how is everyone.. Im fine..First off I have a friend in my youth group who needs prayer her name is Hope.. She is going through a lot right now and I dont know the details and I wouldnt tell anyways unless she told me to..But sorry hope I am just trying to get the word out that you need prayer.. But anyways. I love God he is so Amazing. Well Seth will be down next thursday..I cant wait..well yes I should be going now..I love you guys verry much..

God bless,

~Tasha~

O' sweet Angel of mercy with your grace like the morning wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger/hey ungraceful I will teach you toforgive one another/Hey unloving I will love you  I will love you

JESUS IM READY TO COME HOME


Monday, May 01, 2006

Currently Listening
Shadows Are Security
By As I Lay Dying
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How is every one doing. Me I miss Seth more than ever before. I had a blast in Illinois. It was definately the best week of my life. He is amazing in every way. I even miss his parents. and his cats.  here is my week for you  saterday morning we left around 9:30  we missed the first exit to fay-town because we were talking of course. I fell asleep for a goon 30 minutes or less. I saw the Arch in St. louis. Missouri as weird bridges. we got back we ate. we watched some Tv. went to bed. sunday we went to church it was good I like their chuch alot. when we got back home we ate some good stuff that his mom made. Yummy she is a really good cook let me tell you. We rented some movies like encino man or w/e  ace ventura when nature calls. duce biggalo the first one. and etc...we went cruising around the cities all that good stuff. monday he had band practice so I went with him. I met some of his friends then I met Carter on sunday. He is fun. there was this one "kid" name ben gheere or sumthing that I didnt like. at all. Finally when i got sick of him calling me Kid I was flipped out on him and said i am not a kid i have name and blah blah. Tuesday we went to the mall and hung out. wendsday we went to practice early to set up and stuff. after that Carter, Brittany, Seth, Me, some other girl, and Clay were playing vollyball (can you even imagine me playing) and some other people joined us later on. it was fun. then we had church and then went to taco bell yummy. Thursday we went out to eat at Ruby Tuesdays it was really good. then we went to see the benchwarmers. it was an amazing movie.  friday we just mainly chilled and went to get mothers day cards. and all that stuff. saterday. slept most of the way here.  woke up and my hair was all crazy I braided Seths hair so his would look crazy too but it didnt work I had him help me fix my hair aww sweetness.  I Tasha used a public restroom for the first time scince I was little and I dont plan on going back to one unless im on another 10 hr roadtrip to Illinois ha and cant take it anymore lol. when we got in to fay-town it started sinking in more that I was almost home the one place I didnt want to be. First time I have not been homesick and so mad to be home. When we got to Nikki and Stephens apartments Seths dad took us out to eat at Logans. it was okay but I was still sad and didnt really feel like eating much. we stayed up really late because he had to be on the road at like 5am so yeah he left Nikki's around 2:30 I still wasnt tired and all I wanted to do was hug him and cry till he left becuase I was already missing him. I have never ever in my life felt this way before. Its amazing. He is my one and only. He came back over at 4:sumthing to tell me bye and I was still awake. again we hugged and I cried. I never wanted to let him go but I had to. as soon as he walked out the door I started crying like hard core. well enuf of the emo stuff I am so blessed to have him in my life he is the most amazing person I have ever met. He is everything I ever wanted.

sunday at church we had some famous gospel singer come sing and she also preached it was a really good service. after church I finally got to talk to brittany huff she is ungrounded now YAY!  Mom Nikki, Ryan, Brooklyn, Stephen and I all went to Nikki's to eat. I tried calling seth non stop from 12 till he finally called back at 3. everyone left Nikkis except me and mom and nikki. nikki took a nap i was just sitting there and mom asked what was wrong i told her and again i started balling. 

sunday night church service was amazing. Erica Gabby and Shae sang. They sing Amazingly if thats a word if not i just made it one. I started feeling the holly spirit like imidiatly. the whole youth group went up front to pray for theese 2 kids. One by one Randy(youth pastor) pulled us away and was laying hands on us and what not. It was great I kept getting told God has something Speacial for me coming up soon. God is amazing. let me tell you. me and brittany were up front by ourselves hugging for what seemed to us to be like a minute was actually 10 minutes. Me and Brittany have been through everything together. She is the bestest friend anyone could ask for. We both stepped out of our comfort zones last nigh me and her are usually the ones who just sit back too nervous to really get out of that. but let me tell you. You shouldnt be ashamed or nervous about God you should seek him at all hours of the day he will work wonders in your life. He has done alot of amazing things in mine these last 6 months. I just really need you guys to pray for my brother Ryan he is going through a divorse and he has to go back to court thursday for custody over brooklyn. Just pray that everything goes well.  well this is enouph typing for me today. but you know what 17 more days until underoath is in fay-town for 2 days. Also Seth will be back either the 17 or 18..  well some one wanted me to do this litte thing so here goes..

7 things i want to do before i die

1. finish school                                                                                        2. get married to Seth
3. travel the world
4. get a tattoo or 2
5. go sky diving
6. have kids
7. go to colorado

7 things i cannot/will not do

1. deny that i am a christian
2. cheat on Seth
3. do drugs
4. regret anything that i have done in the past                                                                                                          5. steal from someone
6. bite my nails
7. be so consumed with my future that I forget about the present

7 things that attract me to boys 

  1. Christian
  2. brown wavy hair
  3. respectful
  4. caring
  5. loving
  6. tall around 5'11
  7. everything about Seth                                                                                                                                                                                                        

7 movies i could watch over and over

  1. biodome
  2. encino man
  3. fun with dick and jane
  4. edward sissorhands
  5. the itallian job
  6. waynes world
  7. cellular

7 favorite songs

  1. hey now~ fm static its 100% better when Seth sings it
  2. some will seek forgiveness others escape~underOATH
  3. Im content with losing~ underOATH
  4. Sick~Fly Leaf
  5. Taste the red hands~dead poetic
  6. who I am hates who Ive been~relient k
  7. Walls~Emery

7 people that i want to fill this out

  1. Seth
  2. Tucker
  3. Stephen
  4. Jason
  5. Ashley
  6. Audrey
  7. Anyone else who wants to

 

I Love you guys

God bless each and every one of you

Tasha


Saturday, April 15, 2006

Currently Listening
And the Rest Will Follow
By Project 86
all of me
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ONE MORE WEEK 'TILL IM IN ILLINOIS!!!!! Yep..I can't wait!

So how is everyone doing good I hope. Just thought I would update because I really have nothing better to do. Well I could be reading a book for this book report Im doing but I just can't get motivated to do so..Well yes 6 more days until I see Seth again! Im so excited. well hmm I dont know what else to say. Every thing is going good. My brother and nice stayed over last night.. Brooklyn was sick gosh I hope I dont get sick..this nasty headache is far to much for me to take right now!! I have had it for 2 days now it sucks...but there is nothing I can  do about it except pray that God heels this brainless head of mine.. well not so brainless but it sounded good I guess. well here is some lyrics I am leaving you with.

A Love So Pure

Always did it on my own then one day I realized
I was blind,, nothing I could do on my own
Turn, we have found a way to see, look up... feel the Almighty
Take control as we gaze into your eyes
We're just the tool you use to bring this world to you
Oh, Lord, how we love you
With your grace, take away the hurt and the bruises inside,
reach down let your glory reside
The cross carried for all of us, paint the image in my mind
So I will never think I am something,
but nothing am I but you, you are something
Lord you keep me alive, you give me rest at night
When there seems no way to find calmness in the storm you come and
take me in your arms and then the waves drown me no more
With you I'll last this battle and many others
Through the ages your name will reigh forever... never to be replaced
In these trials I face, I pray you humble me
Humble me I want to be like you Jesus more and more like you
I was crucified on that day with Christ
Nailing you there with sin, accepting you
I nailed my soul to the cross and now my life begins
This world so cold but your love keeps me warm
My father holds me in his nailed scarred hands which I put there
But for some reason he still loves me with all his heart
Even through I betray him constantly
He always keeps his arms open waiting, till I give up my old was
God my father, you are the only one that can give me comfort
You touch my heart in such a way that all I can do is cry your name
Jesus Christ I love you
My heart aches for your love

Burden In Your Hand

Confusing and scared there is a decision made with this choice a child hasto pay
She puts it's life in her hands, and then she destroys it's only chance to become someone in life
You should of thought aboutthe baby before you had sex, because you have destroyed a gift from God
You kill, you destroyed
Never will this baby be able to grow up or show it's love
You'll never hear it say I love you, I love you
God does not give you the privilege to carry a child for nothing
When you kill, you destroy that child's dreams and hopes
How innocent a baby is... how can you put it to death?
What if you were aborted... you could of never had life
And now you make a choice to take this child's life becayse it is a burden in you hands
A burden in your hands
Destroyed out of convenience
They put an end to you life because you're too big a burden and one that they can not have
So they take your life before your first breath
When will it stop, the killings continue
Babies die everyday because of a pro choice made
Helpless and innocent they are putto death
Then why did the parents choose to plant a seed and then destroy it?
Pray for the people who are killing the kids of tomorrow
How desperately they need Jesus Christ in there hearts
So they take your life because your a burden in their hands
Destroyed our of convenience
They put a end to you life because you're too big a burden and one that they can not have
So they take your life before your first breath,
so they take your life brfore your first breath

 

And I Dreamt Of You

I see they love in the distance. [x4]

Breathless,
Gasping for air, for in thy dreams where you were,
Awakening to the blackness in my room.

As my eyes begin to blur, reality sets and starts the fear.
For do dreams come true, or do I die alone?
Waiting, like the petals of a wilting flower fall off
Until there is none and the once beautiful flowers dies naked
With no one to clothe it.
Will I hold you in the grave, or will the grave hold me?

The numbing dreams never end,
The swallows wings still amongst the idle wind.
My colored wold turns to grayscale,
Recollecting the memories;
Eyes covered hazel, eyes covered hazel.

Contradiction of my thoughts; standing calm, love not lost

Searching 'til I find my princess, whose passionate eyes cut right through me

For what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts?
What is romance if it is all fiction?
Nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt
But to meet my love in the flesh is to find my whole heart, my whole heart.

Your heart breaks though me, your love is the key
Longing for my heart's door
To what day? 'Til I see sunrays shine upon your face
I dream of you the way you look,
The beating of the love in your heart
Your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love
Waits for me, until eternity's end

Is this poetry or is this love's sickness
Engulfing my every being?

Take the heart from you, and the blood ceases from me
I see what you hear
Breathing, take the closest thing to me and my savior
Falling in love to a person I have never met;
But knowing she has salvation's fragrance

By God's grace this love will be free,
And able to fly away above the earth,
To a point, point of exhaustion,
But your breath will keep me alive-

Words are pointless, for this love is speechless [x2]
Preparing for the curtain's closure
Laying there, clutching hands so tight; I can feel your heart
Telling me it will be alright
Ascension to heaven where this love can not only walk,
But it runs through the endless fields of joy,
Where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting
This was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer
That T will rest sleepless 'til the sun rises on that day
And butterflies sing with us, as we write love symphonies
The pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago
Where fairy tales come true
And you and I, my love, will live happily ever after. [x3]
I love you

 

When The Sun Sleeps

I thought you'd come back at least I prayed (so I prayed)
The romance has been dead (the romance is dead, the romance is dead)
For years (you come back)
But I've been too afraid to dig the grave (so I prayed)
Relief support never came

Memories carry me through the day
Of when we were kids
And angels came to watch us play

Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

A movie that plays in my mind
Remembring you helps me survive
Every day a re-run of the next
I promised to stay by your side
That all would change, I can't complain
Another victim of the game

Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

Maybe love will find us again
For there is always tomorrow
Sincerely till the end
Close my eyes just for tonight
The sun still sleeps and when she wakes,
Close my eyes just for tonight
The sun still sleeps and when she wakes

Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes
Close my eyes, just for tonight
The sun still sleeps, and when she wakes

You'll be a memory (be a memory)

Angels Below

you took me over the edge
and left me there to fall by myself
the word love meant nothing to you
i was taken in with your lies
and you knew i was too weak to leave
but you were wrong
you mean nothing to me now
every time you think of me
i hope your heart dies
i have found my true love
and you now burn beneath my feet
you'll pay for everything you've done
if you could die
i'd be the one with the gun
from this day on
i'll write the songs you hate
and pray the prayers that drive you away
it's time to let the world know how
you tried to ruin my life
up burn my thoughts of him
the virus leaves me

I'm Content With Losing

Like I said; "leave your baggage at the back door."
Where I'm leaving you the way I think it should be.
We're always pulling into spaces (that we can't back out of)
Starting fights.
We cant talk our way out of this
(talk our way out of this)
Talk our way out of this.

How does it feel to be on the receiving end of this one?
Of this one?

I'm half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So I walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So I'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

I'll fantisize of being manic and leaving us behind.
In your eyes, you were the one that tried.

Acceptance is what holds us here
Then you my dear are the one I fear tonight.
We'll try this one more time.

This is the moment that we all live for.
Are you ready?
Are you ready?

I'm half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So I walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So I'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

You cant see past my waving hands.
(just running away again)
You cant see past my waving hands.
(good-bye)

(it gets so loud it hurts my ears.)

I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I cant feel you,
You're so far from me.

This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

I heard a voice through the dischord
Of a deluge of passers-by.
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by.
I swear I'll know your face in the crowd,
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering...

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.

Hey unloving

I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.

Jesus I'm ready to come home.

All songs are by UNDEROATH off of all cd's

 


Friday, April 07, 2006

Currently Listening
They're Only Chasing Safety
By UnderOath
10. some will seek forgivness others escape
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Hey everyone whats up? not alot here.. I will be going to Illinois in 15 days !!!!!!! YAY I can't wait..So is everyone enjoying the beutiful weather as much as I am??I doubt it.. but hmm me and Seth are doing great.. My Bestest friend Brittany is going to prom this year I just pray it goes better for her than it did me.. Prom sucked last year I dont plan on going ever again..SO ARE ALL YOU ROCKERS OUT THERE READY FOR ALL THE SHOWS IN FAY-TOWN  the next few months.. Boy I am let me tell you.. I so can't wait for the underoath shows they are going to be amazing!! Im looking forward to all of them Hopefully I wont miss Project 86, demonhunter, or spoken I know i will not miss the underoath one becuase i will go out of my way to see those guys they are the most incredible band ever...OO I CANT WAIT...Well yes I am going to go check out myspace if you dont know it, it is myspace.com/emogrl4christ101..   Talk to you people later

 

Keep it rockin'

Tawsha

 

Innocence Stolen

Her body twitches, unbearable pain
Lord bring me out of this, why doesn't he stop, love does not exist
Her insides feel like an unbearable hell
Confusion runs through her mind
She prays so loud, she cries from the inside
why, why, why, why, how could someone do this to me?
He has taken this gift from her, fright in her eyes,
he doesn't even flinch, persistence on his face
Her body lay helpless as the shock kicks in
Thoughts of death only enter in
Why was I raped? Why did he do this to me,
I thought he loved me, but now my inside bleed
Scared for life, I face this world
Only the Lord helps me make it through each day
How can you look in a girl's eye and use her body for your own please?
This one's for the child molesters, this one's for the people who rape!
My God powerful will burn your bridged down!
Planned attack on your soul to defeat the evil and make you whole
If no change, then hell your fate
When you rape you take the most important thing in a young girls life
Those who have been raped: you are in my prayers... God hears your cries               _UnderOath
   

 

 



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